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Friday, June 17, 2005, 6:19:00 PM
today is reallie a sHiitttt day.lolx.faced shit the whole day. 1 patient of mine had diarrhoea..and she was like omg. her shit all over the toilet floor. 3 times! i had to wash her. and 3 times she called. i had to help her.lolx. unlucky me. got 2 small tiny spots on my uni thanks to her. bleahx. then another one. had hard stools. so its like stuck at her anus hole. and.. gosh I had to press it out. Myra did it yesterday and i so did not expect me to be the one doing it today. next. dedication to my one and only bed 31. Mdm L. Mdm L. cant talk. jux mumbles. with the eh eh sound. she is alert. cant move. but everytime me and Vanaja will make her smile and even though she cant talk. her smile was enough to make our day. i understood her eye language. like she passing urine and wanting to drink water.i would ask her mdm u passed urine huh. in dialect of course. she would do her best to nod her head or shake her head. her hand has veyr little strength. not even to raise up high. today before i left. she was squealing like a baby. i knew she was calling for someone and i went. she turned her eyes to the cup on the cupboard behind. she wanted coffee. she had no ng tube. so i had to struggle with spoon cause she no strength to use straw. slowly i fed playing with her. she loves to stick out her tongue wheni feed her. and when i stick back or i use the spoon to disturb her. she would laugh. or smile. not normaly laughter but with difficulty. its enough Vanaja came after that. and we both played with her. she was laughing so loud the pm shift taking report turned to look at why was she squealing. i was so happy. and when i told heri was leaving she raised up her hand as much as she could. i took it and i reallie was so. happy. then Vanaja told me she had something to tell me. after work. she said u willbe very upset wheni tel u this. mdm L has colon cancer. and its quite bad. cause these few days greenish liquid have be omitting out from her stomuch. and it stinkx like shit. the colon might be already been totally affected. i never knew it was so bad. i thought it was jux gastric prob. well. next week. i will make her happy. everyday she must at elast smile once. i pray to the lord for her. next.. to the most impt person.hahax my darling! heex. high possiblilty he wun have to work on sun! so happy. heex. wanna spend time with him.. cuase it will be our 5th month! muackx. miss u!!!! baby! u slcker.lolx. caught u slacking today in the ward.lolx Thursday, June 16, 2005, 10:25:00 PM
tired. jux one word to describe. attachment is reallie taking my life.the Ans and hca dun seem to be doing anithing and pushing eveyrthing to me and vanaja. suckx. cant wait for the weekend. cant wait for next week to be over. miss my darling alot. met him yesterday.. so happy. even though it was only for like 2 hours. but i was really happy. baby..sorry i forgot to meet u.. will go find u tmr k. muackx the princess is tired. slpy. my headache is back. i have a cut under my eye even though its not really visible. something bit me on my leg and my thigh is red and itchy. sigh. Monday, June 13, 2005, 11:21:00 PM
today been really tiring.. managed to meet babyx.hee. she is so sweet to give me the pressiex..lolx. love ya babex.. glad u are back!took the bus back.. darling accompanied me on the phone. i admit i did flare up for awhile because i was expecting a different ans..but it was okie in the end.. when he put down the phone.. i was still left with 15 mins ride.. and i jux sit there and jux reflect on things.. on theboth of us.. and my way of handling certain situations.. whats reallie on my mind now.. is the time.. and at times i wonder. so what if my attachemnt is over.. is it guaranteed i would be able to spend more time with u? i wish it would be.. this week is so long. not being able to see u till i dunno when. sunday its not confirm whether u are working.. next week i might be working afternoon. its jux so long. and i feel so. abandoned. reallie like no life. work. slp work slp. noes thats life. but. jxu feel so. sick of it. 1:03:00 AM
back frm the concert. it rocks though.. the music is fantastic. ilove the music.met kc and wilson for supper. with my mum. since kc was on the way at kallang. so jux picked him up. missing darling alot. wonder if he misses me. muackx. baby back! heex. cant wait to see her Sunday, June 12, 2005, 2:26:00 PM
finally an entry! hahahx..sorry for my blog dying yea. well i thought my com died on me. but miraculously it suddenly revived. hahax. been slacking aroudn these 2 days.. later gonna go for PCK vip concert!hahahax. got like seats at the 11th row only.. so good. and its like with goh chok tong.heex. attachment finishing in like 2 weeks. yeax.. so happy. will go mad soon... the ITe girls are gone.. well.. wad a waste. especially with murni and Siqin. lolx. nice girls. miss darling like mad.. heex. he was reallie sweet today while he msg.. make me soooo happy. heex. love u darling!! and when u see this entry.. i am missing u k.. lolx. muackx!! baby coming back today!! yeax.. waiitn for her to contact me.. cindy girl..lolx. so happy right.. got ur titus watch. ahahhax. tell peter he has made my ahgirl the happiest girl ever.hahahax. muackx. huiling.. farah.. all of u. lolx farah b-dae coming already! hahahax. and soon wil be mine..and we can all go party together soon! hahahax. miss ya all.. |